Time

I just cannot believe how fast time goes. My little baby is getting so big now. She is running all over the house, chasing the dogs and grabbing their tails. They are so good with her, especially Boortz. Bovi is tolerant but he doesn't really like being messed with, but Boortz will just lay there while she climbs all over him and bounces up and down on him. What a good boy. It's unbelievable to me to think it's been a year since I went back to work from my maternity leave. Just unbelievable. I've just now gotten to the point where I don't feel like I just had a baby. I kinda still look like I did. Wow, if I could just loose this last pesky 30 lbs. Of course, ten of it was already there when I got pregnant. Oh well, I will be able to wear all my old clothes again someday, but in the meantime I am trying to put all that energy I used to spend hating my body into loving it, and trying to focus on being healthy, not thin. Exercise and eat right to feel good and be healthy, not to loose weight. That way I don't feel like a failure if the weight doesn't just melt away. It is harder to loose weight now than it used to be, but I think that's partially due to the fact that I'm still nursing. That makes it harder, I've heard. Anyway, I'm really trying to see myself as a beautiful spirit and get away from being so concerned with my appearance. At least for right now, I'm the most beautiful woman in the world to my baby, and that's what really matters.