Time

I just cannot believe how fast time goes. My little baby is getting so big now. She is running all over the house, chasing the dogs and grabbing their tails. They are so good with her, especially Boortz. Bovi is tolerant but he doesn't really like being messed with, but Boortz will just lay there while she climbs all over him and bounces up and down on him. What a good boy. It's unbelievable to me to think it's been a year since I went back to work from my maternity leave. Just unbelievable. I've just now gotten to the point where I don't feel like I just had a baby. I kinda still look like I did. Wow, if I could just loose this last pesky 30 lbs. Of course, ten of it was already there when I got pregnant. Oh well, I will be able to wear all my old clothes again someday, but in the meantime I am trying to put all that energy I used to spend hating my body into loving it, and trying to focus on being healthy, not thin. Exercise and eat right to feel good and be healthy, not to loose weight. That way I don't feel like a failure if the weight doesn't just melt away. It is harder to loose weight now than it used to be, but I think that's partially due to the fact that I'm still nursing. That makes it harder, I've heard. Anyway, I'm really trying to see myself as a beautiful spirit and get away from being so concerned with my appearance. At least for right now, I'm the most beautiful woman in the world to my baby, and that's what really matters.

October 3

The older she gets, the more she trashes the house. I suppose I can never expect this to end. I have to keep reminding myself that there will always be time for a clean house later, but she is growing up so quickly and I need to enjoy this time as much as I can, messy house or no. But gosh, do I wish I had the money for a housekeeper. People who have this luxury don't know how lucky they are.

October 2

Well, my house is a wreck, I'm completely exhausted, and I'm drowning in "stuff." For the first time in my life, I want to have less stuff, and it seems to be avalanching onto me, mostly in the form of my husband bringing in all this stuff that his clients give him. You wouldn't believe what people will just give away. Some of it is really good. A lot of it is junk, of course, and it's filling up my basement and garage. I don't know how to convince him that it's too much. He has no idea what it's like to be a mom who just wants an orderly house. There was something else I wanted to put in here but I can't remember what it was now. Guess it wasn't that important. Maybe I'll remember later.

October 1

I cannot believe it's already October. That means I've been back to work for a year already. Time just keeps going by and it seems to be going faster and faster. Kind of like this show I just watched about time travel. It was on the Science Channel. This was some very interesting stuff. Did you know that the faster you are moving, the slower time is? How crazy is that? So when you get on an airplane, you move forward imperceptibly in time. We're talking mere seconds here, but still. Don't ask me to explain it, b/c it's way over my head. All I know is, if you get moving faster than the speed of light, you actually move backwards in time. But you have to use a wormhole, b/c if you are in a spacecraft the gravity will smash you, b/c the faster you move, the greater your mass, so when you get going that fast, the gravity smooshes you like a bug. Well, that's all for now. Gotta go see what the crumb-snatcher is up to.