What a fun week

We had no water for two days due to a leak in the water line right at the hookup to the main line.  So that was great.  Kip has had hives since Wednesday and has been quite miserable (both my children are allergic to penicillin yay).  Eowyn woke up every 30 minutes or so crying and having a fit for two nights in a row.  Ah, how lovely.  I just keep reminding myself that one day I will look back on this time in my life and miss it terribly.  I won't remember how bad the bad parts really were.  At least last night we all slept better.  I think Eowyn was so overly tired that it disrupted her sleep cycle.  I just do not know what to do with this child.  I had stopped letting her take naps so that she would go to bed at a decent time and that seemed to be working until Wednesday.  So last night I let her nap in the evening and then she didn't go to bed until 11:30.  But at least she didn't wake up all night long.  

It's a sad day in a woman's life for her pride in her appearance and self image when she looks at a pair of shoes she's just put on and sees dried spit up on them and says to herself, "I think that's vomit.  Oh well," and leaves the house WITH THE SHOES ON.  Look what motherhood has done to me.  I am so frumptastic.  I refuse to blame my kids for it though.   I will never be one of those mothers who says they used to be skinny before they had kids .....blah blah.  It's not their fault.  I just can't do both, so I had to let some of my standards for my appearance slide.  I could take more time and effort for myself, but right now it doesn't seem worth it.  So I chose to be frumptastic and a little hairier and less well dressed and heavier for now.  My kids need my time and energy more.  But that doesn't mean it's their fault.  It's my choice.  Sometimes I'm sad about it but I know that I'll get back to that one day.  I'll be a lot older though.  Having kids has really made me realize that nothing is ever perfect.  It's not in the nature of the world.  I wish that I could have everything: time to myself, plenty of money (which means I'd have to go back to work) a clean house, lots of time to ride my horse, to go to the gym and have a decent body, to journal or blog, to meditate every day, to go out with friends and have a good time ....on and on, plus be with my kids all the time.  It's just impossible.  So I have learned when I'm feeling overwhelmed and bad about all of those things I just have to realize that everything does not have to be perfect in order for me to enjoy my life.  Because if that was the case, I never would.